The Struggle is REAL.

Hey loves. I'm sure we have all said that phrase, "The struggle is REAL." And I'm also sure that we've said it hundreds of times. It's the perfect phrase for when you're struggling to do anything. 

For me I mostly use it when my motivation is low. When doing what I'm supposed to do is the LAST thing on my "Want to Do" list. For instance, working out. For the past 3 weeks(with a beak in between) I've been working out. It has been so hard! On top of eating right, and drinking between 110-128 ounces of water a day. And before this, I was drinking maaaaybe 30-50 ounces of water a day, a strong maybe. My eating was so out of pocket. Popeyes, Chick-fil-A, Wendy's, Ledo's Pizza, Chipotle, Qdoba, and probably the worst of all, Nana's home cooking. 

I knew that I needed to change for two reasons, 1.) I was the biggest I had ever been. Pushing 230lbs. 2.) I was UNHAPPY. Depression and anxiety had gotten the best of me. And what I thought was comfort food was NOT giving me comfort. I honestly didn't realize it was a problem until I decided to make a change. 

Before writing this I sat down and thought about why I was making the past choices I was making and I was depressed and anxious about everything. I knew it wasn't a solution but it was a quick fix and it was the only thing I knew to do. So I did it. But now I'm understanding (hindsight is def 20/20) why I made that choice and I'm doing everything not to go back to that lifestyle. 

My weight & eating style affected everything. What I wore, how I took pictures, what pictures I posted on my blog and social media platforms. It affected my motivation to write posts. If I didn't like the way I looked, I wouldn't put the pictures in my blog post. Or, hell I wouldn't post at all. It was starting to affect things that I loved and I knew something had to change. 

I share all of this to say this, the struggle was real then and it is still real now! There are struggles everywhere. Working out has been helping me with my depression and anxiety BUT getting up at 5am and giving it my all is a real life struggle. I pretty much exchanged one struggle for the other. And that's okay. I'm learning that struggling doesn't stop just because I change things about myself. As we go through life (and grow through life) things will get easier, but we will gain more struggles.

I hope that you guys are well. I hope that you can find a way to cope with whatever is a struggle in your life. I hope me sharing my struggle and how I've started the process of overcoming it will help you. Leave a comment below of something you struggle with and how/if you have overcome it.

Also y'all, I'm not perfect by any means. And I more than likely will still eat bad foods when I'm traveling. But I'm working on it. And they say you can have cheat meal! Hahaaa.  I love you guys and I will speak to you soon.

Peace&Love,
Janisha